I am sitting in my chair, early on Saturday morning. The sun is shining, and the day promises to be beautiful, with the unseasonable weather we are experiencing. What could possibly make it better?
I will tell you. I could be waking up with my five grandkids in a Ramada Inn, like we had planned for weeks. The bags are packed. The wall is lined with the many sacks of snacks, drinks and surprises that always accompany ANY trip I take to see them.
This trip was unusual. Only 4.5 hours to where they would be this weekend. But as they say, the “spirit was willing, but the flesh was weak”.
I have battling some type of virus, as I podcasted last weekend. But two days ago this virus took residence in my chest. Michael strongly suggested I make a quick trip to the Dr. so that things didn’t take a turn for the worse during the weekend. When I awoke on Friday morning I was having more difficulty controlling the deep cough. I agreed to the Dr. visit. After I spoke with her and got the arsenal of medicine, I realized I was really not UP to the travel and non-stop excitement that accompanies the joy fest of visiting my family, so I had to cancel.
The bags are still packed. I was hoping for a last minute “reprieve” this morning, for a possible abbreviated trip. But again, it just would not be a wise move on my part. You see, I am uninsured, once again. That happens when you go from a temporary worker to a new hire. And I don’t think it would be a wise move to risk pneumonia and any additional bills that would create. I will just have to keep those bags as close to packed as I can and plan another trip as soon as possible.
As I sat here, giving myself three ”poor babies”, ( you need to try it, it really makes you feel better. I give them to my friends, all the time 
I had the distinct impression that God wanted to tell me something. I was standing at the kitchen counter taking my medicine when He spoke to my heart, ”I love you”. I stopped and listened, yes, once again I heard Him say in that still small voice, “I love you!”. Hearing from my Lord and Savior always makes everything better. I know He loves me. His word tells me this all the time. But to feel His presence when I am sad and disappointed changes everything.
No, I won’t be seeing my grandbabies this weekend but now I have something else to do, something else to think about. I want to think about His love. How his love encompasses everyone. He knows how to love. The Bible says in 1 John 4:10 This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins. And also: 1 John 4:16-17 God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him. NIV
Today, I want to love. Like my Heavenly Father. This morning He made me happy. Now, I want to put a smile on His face.
Be loved!
Your friend, lanadee
